sound-of-dentage:
“I used to be so cynical. But more than anything, Kurt’s death changed that. I still can’t make sense about what happened and I was truly shocked by his suicide. I went to the funeral home to say goodbye and it was hard to see him like that. They fixed him ok, but you could see his head was busted up. They folded a kerchief over his eyes and forehead. I held his hand and it was so cold. I left feeling really bad. I drove home alone and out of habit I tuned on the CD player. The Pixes tune sang “Break my body, hold my bones, hold my bones.” I gasped as if my heart stopped so I turned it off. I got home and thought I was going crazy. Even after like 20 times at the sink, I couldn’t wash that cold off my hands. I called Dave and he said I wasn’t going crazy and that it was shock I was experiencing. That realization made me feel a little better. I crawled to bed dazed.” - Krist Novoselic on Kurt’s Death
